Since we came back to the UK — the same city where we used to live before our travels—I found myself feeling very tense in a series of situations that triggered a wave of old thought patterns. My skin began to worsen, and symptoms of rosacea returned. It felt like a huge setback. I thought I was over it, that the healing was so deeply rooted it would last forever.

I sat with that part of my mind and simply observed:
“Why? Why again?”
“How can I be an example now?”
“How can I support others if I have this?”
“What did I do wrong?”

The mind was judging, angry, sad, helpless — and I observed it all. I felt so much love and compassion for it, because in that moment, it had forgotten that everything happens for a reason.

After the crying passed and the storm inside quieted, I felt a wave of peace wash over me. I started slowly and deeply breathing. The mind let go — and became curious.

“I would like to get to know You better, Soul” – said the hurt part of the mind.

This was the hidden message:
When we feel as though a cycle is repeating, it doesn’t mean we’ve done something wrong. It means we are deepening our roots. We don’t want to skip over the parts of ourselves that were once suppressed or left behind — we want to embrace them all.

If an angry, sad, tired, doubtful, or scared part of us surfaces, it simply means it needs to be seen and loved. So, rest assured, if symptoms return, it’s only because an even more magnificent part of you is ready to be discovered and embodied  —the part that wants to shine fully, and be free.

The Protective Personality — the ego — always wants to be somewhere else, anywhere but here. But right now is perfect, no matter what is happening.
There is nothing broken, incomplete, defective, or in need of fixing.
Underneath that thin layer of judgment is so much goodness — and that goodness is You.

So now, despite the symptoms reappearing in my physical world, I no longer abandon the feeling of Greater Love. I did abandon it a few weeks ago —intensely— only to discover that this love is always accessible.
It never leaves me. Only I leave it.

I’m on a grand adventure of discovering more of Me — more care, gentleness, playfulness, wisdom, and peace.

And I continue to help others explore the same — with great joy, passion and devotion. Because when we are Love loving every situation without exception, life just feels so good!