{"id":3409,"date":"2024-11-10T15:06:14","date_gmt":"2024-11-10T15:06:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/?p=3409"},"modified":"2024-11-10T15:06:14","modified_gmt":"2024-11-10T15:06:14","slug":"are-you-a-creator-or-a-victim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/are-you-a-creator-or-a-victim\/","title":{"rendered":"Jeste\u015b tw\u00f3rc\u0105 czy ofiar\u0105?"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Nareszcie uda\u0142o nam si\u0119 wyj\u015b\u0107 z domu, \u017ceby zwiedzi\u0107 Port Arthur w Tasmanii, kiedy nagle Aliya zacz\u0119\u0142a p\u0142aka\u0107, bo Marcel podobno j\u0105 uderzy\u0142. Odwr\u00f3ci\u0142a si\u0119 i powiedzia\u0142a, \u017ce nigdzie z nami nie idzie. Czekali\u015bmy wi\u0119c kolejne 10 minut, a\u017c by\u0142a gotowa, \u017ceby do nas do\u0142\u0105czy\u0107.<\/p>\n

W mi\u0119dzyczasie Marcel zapyta\u0142, czy mo\u017ce odda\u0107 swojego pluszowego diab\u0142a tasma\u0144skiego do sklepu charytatywnego i czy mogliby\u015bmy zamiast tego kupi\u0107 mu kolczatk\u0119. Kupili\u015bmy mu t\u0119 zabawk\u0119 dopiero wczoraj \u2014 tak bardzo na ni\u0105 czeka\u0142 \u2014 a zesz\u0142ej nocy nagle zdecydowa\u0142, \u017ce ju\u017c mu si\u0119 nie podoba i \u017ce nie jest fajnie si\u0119 ni\u0105 bawi\u0107. W mojej g\u0142owie od razu pojawi\u0142y si\u0119 my\u015bli: Ten pluszak kosztowa\u0142 tyle pieni\u0119dzy! Jak on w og\u00f3le \u015bmie my\u015ble\u0107, \u017ce mo\u017ce tak po prostu dosta\u0107 kolejn\u0105 zabawk\u0119!<\/em><\/p>\n

Na szcz\u0119\u015bcie nie powiedzia\u0142am ani s\u0142owa. Postanowi\u0142am wej\u015b\u0107 do swojego \u015brodka. Skupi\u0142am si\u0119 na swoim ciele, staraj\u0105c si\u0119 \u0142agodnie oddycha\u0107. Czu\u0142am, jak narasta we mnie fala gor\u0105ca. Wzi\u0119\u0142am g\u0142\u0119boki oddech i powiedzia\u0142am:<\/p>\n

- Tak, mo\u017cesz odda\u0107 diab\u0142a, ale nie kupimy ci ju\u017c kolejnej zabawki.<\/p>\n

Oczywi\u015bcie, od razu zacz\u0105\u0142 dramatyzowa\u0107! Scenariusz si\u0119 powt\u00f3rzy\u0142, bo Marcel powiedzia\u0142, \u017ce nigdzie z nami nie idzie. Czekali\u015bmy i czekali\u015bmy... Ca\u0142y czas mnie obwinia\u0142. Czu\u0142am, jak buzuje w nim z\u0142o\u015b\u0107 i chcia\u0142 po prostu si\u0119 w niej pogr\u0105\u017cy\u0107. By\u0142am tym zm\u0119czona. Zamiast zajrze\u0107 w g\u0142\u0105b siebie i zobaczy\u0107, co we mnie ta sytuacja wywo\u0142uje, wybuch\u0142am: - Mam do\u015b\u0107. Nigdzie nie id\u0119 - i wr\u00f3ci\u0142am do domu.<\/p>\n

Usiad\u0142am, zamkn\u0119\u0142am oczy, skupi\u0142am si\u0119 na splocie s\u0142onecznym, gdzie czu\u0142am napi\u0119cie. Po chwili zacz\u0119\u0142am oddycha\u0107.<\/p>\n

W ko\u0144cu ca\u0142a czw\u00f3rka wr\u00f3ci\u0142a, a Marcel rzuci\u0142 si\u0119 na pod\u0142og\u0119, p\u0142acz\u0105c, \u017ce ju\u017c nigdy wi\u0119cej nie chce z nami by\u0107. Tak bardzo przypomina\u0142 mi mnie sam\u0105, kiedy by\u0142am dzieckiem. Wiedzia\u0142am, \u017ce w tej chwili potrzebuje tylko mi\u0142o\u015bci. To by\u0142o to, czego naprawd\u0119 potrzebowa\u0142. Wi\u0119c mu j\u0105 da\u0142am. By\u0142am przy nim obecna.<\/p>\n

Po chwili powiedzia\u0142am Sylwkowi, \u017ce zostan\u0119 z Marcelem, a on mo\u017ce zabra\u0107 Aliy\u0119 i Wiktora na spacer. Marcel poszed\u0142 do \u0142\u00f3\u017cka. Kiedy reszta by\u0142a gotowa, \u017ceby zn\u00f3w wyj\u015b\u0107, nagle zda\u0142am sobie spraw\u0119, jak bardzo chcia\u0142am do nich do\u0142\u0105czy\u0107 i wiedzia\u0142am, \u017ce Marcel czu\u0142 to samo.<\/p>\n

Posz\u0142am do niego i powiedzia\u0142am:<\/p>\n

- Marcel, tata wychodzi. Jestem pewna, \u017ce zobacz\u0105 wiele ciekawych rzeczy. Do\u0142\u0105czymy do nich?<\/p>\n

Spojrza\u0142 na mnie tylko.<\/p>\n

- Marcel, chcesz by\u0107 ofiar\u0105 czy tw\u00f3rc\u0105? \u2013 zapyta\u0142am weso\u0142o.<\/p>\n

U\u015bmiechn\u0105\u0142 si\u0119.<\/p>\n

- Chod\u017a, musimy si\u0119 pospieszy\u0107, oni ju\u017c wychodz\u0105!<\/p>\n

- Dobra, ale tylko je\u015bli ty te\u017c idziesz - odpowiedzia\u0142.<\/p>\n

- OK, id\u0119.<\/p>\n

Ostatecznie poszli\u015bmy na fantastyczny, 8-kilometrowy spacer. Widzieli\u015bmy papugi, pi\u0119kne pla\u017ce z ciep\u0142\u0105 wod\u0105. Bawili\u015bmy si\u0119 patykami, udaj\u0105c, \u017ce to nasze kolczatki. Zwiedzili\u015bmy historyczne miejsce Port Arthur i mieli\u015bmy wspania\u0142y czas.<\/p>\n

Oko\u0142o godzin\u0119 po wyj\u015bciu Marcel odwr\u00f3ci\u0142 si\u0119 do mnie i powiedzia\u0142:<\/p>\n

- Zdecydowa\u0142em, \u017ce chc\u0119 zatrzyma\u0107 diab\u0142a tasma\u0144skiego. B\u0119d\u0119 si\u0119 nim bawi\u0107.<\/p>\n

- OK! Bardzo si\u0119 ciesz\u0119, \u017ce wyszed\u0142e\u015b z domu. Jeste\u015b prawdziwym tw\u00f3rc\u0105, wiesz o tym?\u201d<\/p>\n

- Mama, kim jest tw\u00f3rca?<\/p>\n

- Tw\u00f3rca to kto\u015b, kto decyduje, \u017ce chce mie\u0107 inne do\u015bwiadczenia w \u017cyciu. To kto\u015b, kto wybiera, \u017ceby kocha\u0107 swoje \u017cycie. W\u0142a\u015bnie to zrobi\u0142e\u015b! Poczu\u0142e\u015b z\u0142o\u015b\u0107, ale zdecydowa\u0142e\u015b, \u017ce nie jeste\u015b jej ofiar\u0105, \u017ce nie jeste\u015b<\/em> swoj\u0105 z\u0142o\u015bci\u0105, i wyszed\u0142e\u015b z nami, \u017ceby zobaczy\u0107 pi\u0119kne rzeczy.<\/p>\n

- Tak, zrobi\u0142em to! - wykrzkn\u0105\u0142 rado\u015bnie.<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

We were finally leaving our house to explore Port Arthur in Tasmania when Aliya started crying because Marcel had apparently hit her. She turned back and said she wasn\u2019t coming with us. So, we waited another 10 minutes until she was ready to join us again. Meanwhile, Marcel asked if he could give away his […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3410,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"site-sidebar-layout":"default","site-content-layout":"","ast-site-content-layout":"default","site-content-style":"default","site-sidebar-style":"default","ast-global-header-display":"","ast-banner-title-visibility":"","ast-main-header-display":"","ast-hfb-above-header-display":"","ast-hfb-below-header-display":"","ast-hfb-mobile-header-display":"","site-post-title":"","ast-breadcrumbs-content":"","ast-featured-img":"","footer-sml-layout":"","ast-disable-related-posts":"","theme-transparent-header-meta":"default","adv-header-id-meta":"","stick-header-meta":"","header-above-stick-meta":"","header-main-stick-meta":"","header-below-stick-meta":"","astra-migrate-meta-layouts":"set","ast-page-background-enabled":"default","ast-page-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-4)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"ast-content-background-meta":{"desktop":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"tablet":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""},"mobile":{"background-color":"var(--ast-global-color-5)","background-image":"","background-repeat":"repeat","background-position":"center center","background-size":"auto","background-attachment":"scroll","background-type":"","background-media":"","overlay-type":"","overlay-color":"","overlay-opacity":"","overlay-gradient":""}},"footnotes":""},"categories":[87],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3409","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-daily-life"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3409","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3409"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3409\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3414,"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3409\/revisions\/3414"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3410"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3409"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3409"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/i-remember.life\/pl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3409"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}