A couple of days ago in the morning I felt a strong, heavy, tight energy in the body, and the judging thoughts quickly kicked in. They were so overwhelming and loud that I struggled to keep my attention on the sensations in the body. It felt like they were all there was.

I went for a walk. At first I felt like running, so I ran as fast as I could into the little path that led towards the park. It was very warm but cloudy. The wind was still. Once I walked through the fields there were so many flowers, especially purple ones, whose wonderful sweet scent spread everywhere. I kept walking and finally sat under the lime tree by the lake. The water surface was so still, but my mind was roaming, judging me so much. I kept breathing from the earth into the belly and down to it, but still the head felt overwhelming and I couldn’t fully drop inside.

On the way back, not knowing much what to do with myself, I again walked through the fields of flowers with the amazing scent that filled the air. Suddenly I decided I would collect the flowers for a bouquet for myself. I started picking them and arranging them in my hands and I got totally lost in that moment. I enjoyed myself so much. After quite a while, once I felt complete with how the bouquet looked, I realised that not a single judging, worrying, upsetting, anxious thought had entered my mind. I was totally present.

Now, this showed me that I am able to be present with my disconnected, judging mind too. We all have this ability. To go deeper – Presence is what we are. That’s why, when we are completely engaged in creating, we forget about everything – time, space, people, things – we are just purely Presence. Only the mind recognises: oh, this is what I have just experienced – Presence! As if we did not have the mind, and its proper function of observing, we would not be able to experience ourselves in the body. We would be constantly present and that would be it!

And I perceived something else. Every time my kids go through waves of emotions, even when they judge me, others, or situations, I am present with them. When, during all of that happening, I feel the charge, I feel into it, and when the tears want to stream down my face, I allow them to stream. I’m always near or hugging them once the energy is moving in their bodies, and I allow it to be released.

This made me aware that I’m not fully allowing myself to be loving with the energies that get stirred up in my body – to be with them, present, and allow them to be released. If the kids can do that quickly, so can we. We just weren’t taught to operate that way. It looks easy, but it takes practice for us.

Every day I am more committed to allowing myself to feel without judgment. We don’t feel in the thoughts! We feel in the body, and it is there that I encourage you and myself to pay more attention. With pure Presence. Because Presence is Love. Always.